Yepp

Yea soo I aint blogged in awhile... and though It was about time to blogg and update everyone of whats going on in bj's wounderfull life ((nott))

Soo....Its the 20th =( and its been a whole year since brea passed away.... It sucks... Dont seem like its been a year yet... but it has....=(

What eles

Kendra was home for like 10 dayz not that long ago... and I miss her again......

Muh"boyfriend" has been in jail for a month... and I think i'm bracking up with him.... At the end of this month tho. we have been together for 6 months.... yepp.... on the 26 I think... maybe 28th aint sure right... now.......

Ummmmmmmmm...... I been doing alot of stuff I shouldnt b doin.... and its nott good....

Like I have been partying EVERY weekend since muh birthday... witch was..... 3 months ago...... thats all I'm saying about that...... ummm... I cant think of ne thing eles but I am going to start blogging again....


luv peace and chicken grease <3

I knew it was toooo good to b tru.... 2 months and 18 dayz ((as off 7/15/07)) and now its all down the drain...... FUCK....



stupid fucking people need to stop running there fucking mouths... god.. fucking damn it... and just let people b happy for once........SHIT.....







((I still luv u and WONT ever stop......))

<3333333333
It's love

Oh how i love this boi <3333

Yea soo i came home for a couple dayz cause me and Ray were fighting over stupid shit ((I dont know how to communicate)) and we figured spend a couple dayz apart cause he had appointments and shit and work to do.... and I could come home and hang out..... with muh mom and dad and friend that i aint seen all summer and shit right.....


well i just found out that after his appointment this morning he took off with his Edd friend..... to New York and dont plan on comeing back till tom. .... im kinda pissed... but then kinda not....Cause that was the whole plan... take some time away from each other soo we both can go do our own thing....... but then I am pissed cause.... he said ihad to go home so he could "work" an soo i didnt have to sit around his house all day being bored and shit... soo i wouldnt get pissed off.... right..... but NOOOOO he fucking took off with his friend.... w/ee.....


And Robin was telling me last night that.... he said a buncha shit when he went down to her house... bout him waking up in the middle of the night and me not being there... not being ne wheres even in the fucking house......


kinda weird... kinda scares me... cause iknow i use to sleep walk and shit... and go outside to pet muh dog.... and he lived out in the middle of no where.... and if im walkking outside in the darkkk AHHHHHHH...... lol

But what ever ima not worrri bout it that much......



even tho i dont like Edd..... and I dont like the girls he hangs out with cause there a bbuncha whores.... UGHHH....

O well i think i trust him

<33

http://www.crazydogtshirts.com/servlet/Detail?no=666




I want that /\ buy it for me and i'll love ya forever....



((its like muh NEW fav word and i NEED it lol))

Fights SUCK.... special the day b4 i go home... cause the i fell like shit the whole time im home......


And now im worried cause muh boyfriend Dont fell good and he wont even talk to me on the phone....:( o well i hope he gets better....



nitenite <33

Soo i figured i would come home today... and NOT only cause I NEED a doctors appointment but i though I would come home and spend some time with muh soo called FAMILY..... But from What went on and What i saw and Read with-in the last 3 hours.... i aint no longer wanted around here..................... and thats sad..... fuck all yall..... I dont know if ya'll ever heard the word HAPPPY.... ((oh wait never mind.... ya'll are ALLOWED to b happy.... )) well i am starting to think that u all are agenst me being HAPPY cause the way it sounds.... nono of u like what i do.... ((and u can suck muh fucking dick.... cause I DONT CARE)) YEA thats right Kendra and Rhonda just to prove u right I SAID IT.... happy.... I DONT fucking care ne more..... im happy and thats all that matters to me.... Soo what if i give him everyy penny that i get..... Its not like I dont get some of whatever he gets outta it..... GEEEZ-US.... i will b SSOOOOOOOOOOO fucking glad when Thursday gets here and leaves.... cause the i wont have to b home again for a while to put up with ne onez shit.....





FUCK ALL YA'LLL I DONT CARE WHAT U FUCKING SAY........

Yeppp soo Rayz outta jail :D makes me smile....... And i was at his house for like that last week :D it was a LONG week... lol....NOTTT cause i was with him <33 just cause... u know lol ;) but yea..... I just wanted to blog.. cause muh body hurts... cause i got beat up by Pat... litterly.... and it all started cause i was drunk and i throw muh cellphone at him and hit him in the nutz... haha... then he tackled me... picked me up and droped muh on muh fucking head.... thats all i reamber.... lolBut yea thats all i wanted to blog... lol ... later <333 ya

Sooo i was fine and danddy and was trying not to think of that fact that Ray was in jail.... till tonite :(... when i seen... Kristan and Eric... and Jonnie and Kathie....and Kendra and Jimmy.... together and happy... then it kicked in......................

its going to KILLL me.....=(

this dont happend offten... soo comment it and tell me if i should delete it or keep it <33

Promises
A promise is a promise
Between two lovers,friends,sisters, brothers
What ever it may be
It must be kept
Kept till time expierece
Never broken
Kept throw THICK and thin
Throw good and bad
So next time u promise someone something
No matter what it may be
Think of all the stuff u got to go throw
Just to for fill our promise\
So when i told u that day i PROMISE
I meant it
Throw THICK and thin
Good and Bad...
I'll b right here for you baby
Locked up or Not
I still LOVE you <33\

yepp heres another one of muh SHITTY poems... for Ray <33>

no matter what ne one says bout ya... EVERYONE FUCKS UP ONCE OR TWICE <33

5/31/07

4/27/07<33

last day of school :d.... summers going to sucks tho =(

2 1/2 more dayz of school .... yay!!! <33

Soo yea i dont care what ANYONE says ne more... im happpy... and loving it.... soo yea.... yall can back off... just cause i dont go down town ne more ((cause its been cold)) and i aint home on weekends...... o well..... u'll get over it.....



im BJ and EVERYONE knowz i dont like being stuck in fucking coudy..... and i WONT stay in coudy alll summmer.... i prolly wont b here 1/2 the time.... well that is if everyone stays going the way its going now......




never though i would see this day...... 5/27/07= a WHOLE MONTH...... ((ya i know that aint a long time.... BUTTT..... we usally only date for like 2 weeks... lol))



<33 him

LAST MONDAY OF SCHOOL..... YAY... ONLY......61/2 DAYZ LEFT WOOOT

Soooo i tryed NOT to fall... soo it would hurt that bad.... but i THINK its going to work.....and i done did fell <33

yepp... sooo both muh rents...are pissed off at me... and wont talk or do ne thing for me.... WOW... wat a suprise right.... well there pissed cause

1. i lost muh fucking job.... big fucking deal... muh bad god damn....
2. they dont like who im dattin...... big deal ONCE AGAIN..... well i guess it would have helped if i DIDNT....... come home with a hickie from "Laura's"......... and if i wouldnt have gotten pissed off and told them that i was dattin him again... and they cant say a god damn thing......
3. ima fuck up... i fuck EVERYTHING up.......
4..... theres LOTZ..... but i aint gonna sit here and name ne more.... cause thouse are the only important 3.....





WOW SOOO IMA FUCK UP... FUCK ME SIDEWAYZ........

soo i aint blogged in a while... prolly cause i HAD job..... and i wasnt ever home... and when i was home i was over in Ulysses... haha... wat a loser... but ne wayz... just wanted to blog... an say......((cause im in a really happy mood))





woooo its magic....<33

i dont know what to think........ A RING???

You have a sexual IQ of 142 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

this is what i do all day when i dont go to school... haha.... do stupid survay things haha... FUNN!!

\
god im soo freacking board....

Sagittarius

You are fun loving and independent, and you don’t like any of your partners to get in the way of that. You enjoy having a lot of flings and short term relationships because you get bored in a long term one.

In bed you are demanding of your partner. You want to have hot sex all of the time. You also like to experiment sexually, with different positions and fantasies.

Sex matches: Aries, Leo, Libra





((if thats not just bout the truth haha... oo do i luv these stupid servay's haha <33))

"VooDoo"

[Chorus:]
I'm not the one who's so far away
When I feel the snake bite enter my veins
Never did I wanna be here again
And I don't remember why I came

Candles raise my desire
Why I'm so far away
No more meaning to my life
No more reason to stay
Freezing feeling,
Breathe in, breathe in
I'm coming back again

[Chorus]

Hazing clouds rain on my head
Empty thoughts fill my ears
Find my shade by the moon light
Why my thoughts aren't so clear
Demons dreaming
Breathe in, breathe in
I'm coming back again

[Chorus x4]

Voodoo, voodoo, voodoo, voodoo.
[Repeat]

So far away...
I'm not the one who's so far away...
I'm not the one who's so far away...
I'm not the one who's so far away...

((weird song i know.... but theres a LONG story behind it haha..<33))

muh toooth is fukin killin..... and i aint going to school today and i HOPE i can get into the dentist and they will pull it cause i cant take it ne more.... but ne wayz





its only been 7 dayz... but its going good :D....YAY!





but ima go cause the only thing i can think of saying right now is wowie

i THINK its actually going to work this time <3333>

~!*bj *!~: ha... mines bigger tho... soo dont get toohappy
Matt: Bullshit
~!*bj *!~: it aint no lie
Matt: yea
Matt: right
~!*bj *!~: i would lie to u
~!*bj *!~: just reamber 2 words.... ELEPHANT DONG
~!*bj *!~:
~!*bj *!~: okay shut up bj... dont start
Matt: Lol hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
Matt: Lol brb I gotta take a piss and let my elephant dick hang out and hit the water in the toilet
~!*bj *!~: sweet... take pictures
~!*bj *!~:
Matt: Lol back and no pic
~!*bj *!~: damn
~!*bj *!~: lol
Matt: It's too cold lol
~!*bj *!~: excusses \
~!*bj *!~: god\
Matt: Lol yea right
~!*bj *!~: lol
~!*bj *!~: sooo was the water cold?
Matt: Fuckin freezin lol
~!*bj *!~: damn that has to suck
Matt: And swallows
~!*bj *!~: yepp me too\
~!*bj *!~: i mean that to
~!*bj *!~: ha
Matt: Oh u swallow too lol
~!*bj *!~: heck yea.. u know it
Matt: How come u never done that wit me
~!*bj *!~: u never come vist
Matt: Damnit then will u
~!*bj *!~: u better
~!*bj *!~: nigger\
Matt: Hey I ain't pickin no cotton or swayin on a tree watch it there gurl
~!*bj *!~: we can stay up all night an talk bout elephant dongs
~!*bj *!~: ha
Matt: Hey I ain't pickin no cotton or swayin on a tree watch it there gurl
Matt: Mine or ur elephant dong?????????
~!*bj *!~: both
Matt: Lol
Matt: Ur crazy
~!*bj *!~: soo how many time does it rape around ur lag??
~!*bj *!~: mines like atleast 7
~!*bj *!~: gotta tuck it in muh shoe sometimez too
Matt: Shit it never stops it goes all the way too my big toe then drags down the road and it hurts like a bitch when I close the car door
~!*bj *!~: BUTTT.... when i gotta boner... it kinda sucks... i gotta wear pants that are like 30 sizes too big..... but i dont need a belt....
~!*bj *!~: it holds muh pantz up for me
Matt: Same here
~!*bj *!~: yea it sucks sometimez
Matt: Yea but I get alot of pussy
~!*bj *!~: me too
Matt: I got ass sometimes too anal sex is pretty good
~!*bj *!~: it is... every once in a while\
~!*bj *!~: i hate tight ones tho
~!*bj *!~: it hurt a lil
~!*bj *!~: and gotta us like a whole 6 gallons a lub
Matt: Yea sometimes I hate havin to buy 60 ky jelly jars for one time
~!*bj *!~: yea i know
~!*bj *!~: it sucks.. and its such a waste of time....
~!*bj *!~: i mean mone
~!*bj *!~: money
~!*bj *!~: ha
Matt: Lol were crazy nigag
Matt: nigga
~!*bj *!~: i know i know
~!*bj *!~: thats y u luv ya budd... ha
~!*bj *!~: in a sexual elephant but humping kinda way
~!*bj *!~: ha
Matt: Lol u damn right so when u goin to stick that 6 lube dick in my ass lol j/p
~!*bj *!~: oo u know..... im taking a plan down there inlike.... a year or soo....
~!*bj *!~: soo u better b ready
Matt: Ight Lol Alwayz ready and willin
~!*bj *!~: sweet
~!*bj *!~: ima bend u over... and stick it in .... dnt let me forgot muh lub
Matt: Oh I like it rough though too So I just might let u forget
~!*bj *!~: o okay
~!*bj *!~: might hurt a lil
~!*bj *!~: its just bout as big as a tellephone poll
Matt: I like it when it hurts me
Matt: Thats fine wit me
~!*bj *!~: sweet.... ima pull ur hair tooo
Matt: I have no hair really lol
~!*bj *!~: well i'll find some
Matt: Lol My ass hairs lol
~!*bj *!~: iigh that works
Matt: Lol were so gross u knoe that right lol
~!*bj *!~: i know i now
~!*bj *!~: know
Matt: But thats kewl
~!*bj *!~: yepp
~!*bj *!~: can i lick ur butt tooo
~!*bj *!~: cant beleve i just said that
~!*bj *!~: ha
Matt: Go for it just don't get a hairball
~!*bj *!~: i'll try not to
Matt: K fine wit me then
~!*bj *!~: kk....
~!*bj *!~: ima beat ya off with muh feet too... maybe.... if muh feet willl fit around it
Matt: Fine wit me
~!*bj *!~: kk
~!*bj *!~: haha god\
~!*bj *!~: im weird\
~!*bj *!~: i luv it
Matt: So am I
~!*bj *!~: i must admit tho... i cheeted
~!*bj *!~: i took some pills... i found... on the side of the road...
~!*bj *!~: thats how i got muh elephant dong
Matt: lol
Matt: Lol U cheater lol mine came naturally damnit
~!*bj *!~: yea....
~!*bj *!~: well yea see\
~!*bj *!~: it was pretty big... like a draffi... b4 i took the pill soo\
~!*bj *!~: its okay




GOD I FUCKING LOVE THIS KID!!

yepp... soo i fell for him again..... shame on me I KNOW.... and EVERYONES prolly going to b pissed off at me... but u know what o well.....they'll get over it if there muh REAL friends......


He promised it would b different, he said he changed..... do i beleve this or not... i dont know... ima try..... He said he loves me... He said ALOT..... He said he wants to b with me..... and wont treat me like shit EVER AGAIN....


Ya thats right im gullible ((how ever u spell it... o well))





i <333>

~*puts the lotion on the skin*~
*~thats y mom callled u RHONDA DIRT!!!!~*




soo i was in the shower and i started thinking bout Joe Dirt... hahahahahaha.... not like Joe Joe... but the movie... hahaha....


okay this is the end cause i dont reamber wat i was typing hahahha <333333

scot: looks like ur gunna cry
~!*bj *!~: nope lol
scot: dont cry u got me
~!*bj*!~:awwwwz <3 thanx
scot: ok well.........
scot: hey
scot: i gtg
~!*bj *!~: okay.. i guess i'll ttul <33
scot: ok luv yas sexy
~!*bj *!~: <33 ya
scot: i doo
scot: ok
~!*bj *!~: okay
scot:
scot: byez
~!*bj *!~: bye



awwwz hes sooo sweet!! <33

BJ- soo this morning at like 6 i was thinking.... and i think i figured out how to make him stop thinking we are fuck buddies....
Kendra- how....?
BJ-...... well... i gotta stop lettin him talk me into "hanging out"
Kendra- haha yea... that prolly could work... but wats that going to change if u just hang out and dont do ne thing?
BJ- well yea see...... we had sex AGAIN last night........\
Kendra- dosnt he have a gurlfriend
BJ- yea....
Kendra-.... BJJ!!!!
BJ- wat its not like its muh fault or something........
BJ- okay i guess it is somewhat muh fault..... it does take 2 to tango.....




haha.... convo during sun bathing...<33\
















((ima miss these conversation... i wont have ne one to share muh sex life with after she leave :( ))

yea... soo that post... like.... 3 or 4 down from this one.... yea... i guess we wernt really even fighting.. and he was tellin me how WE dont hang out cause the weather WAS shitty... haha...




there i got again

yepp.... soo last night at the china garden was funn... haha.....



thanx again for the food sean ((how ever u spell it))

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZtNjDWRXaKI\













watch it ... funny shit..... ((fav haha))

yep sooo today SENIOR skip day.... and i skiped with Kendra... shhhh... no one has to know im NOT senior hahaha.... and we are going to Olean as retards or something like that... hahaha

its NOT our fault that WE dont hang out ne more.... yea the other day when we were on Easter vacation u MIGHT blaam it on me... but hey.... Karrie likED Sean.... and she wanted to hang out with Ben b4 she gets put on probation.. cause hes never around and HES MOVING.... unlike YOU..... soo u know... im sick of this bullshit... ever since that STUFFF ((insert in blank)) happend..... u and i... havnt been the same... all we do is FUCKING FIGHT damn.... and im sick of it... soo if u wanna hate me.... and not talk to me.. and drop outta them stupid group things... its okay..... cause ((as far as we know)) we still have the Champions..... and we have... Bj&Kendra ((we dont have a name an IF we do then.. i dont know wat it is right at the moument)) but u know im done.... this is bullshit..... GROW UP......u are acting like a lil fucking kid... one day u hate me.. and think i have cuddies ((haha though it sounded good)) and then the next day... u are like muh BEST friend.... then the next day u want in muh fucking pantz..... and then the next day u fucking HATE ME again....... its B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T....... god...... w/e... tho u wanna b an asshole like that then GO FOR IT.... u are going to loss a friend...... and when Kendra's gone i KNOW u are going to turn to me....but guess wat IF THIS SHIT keeps happening... then FUCKKKKKK uuu........


fuck off... i no longer wanna talk to u..... nor see u.....
and DONT come to muh house.... idk whos here... u'll just have to wait out fucking side...... for them to leave....











((go ahead an read this and tell himm.... GOO FOR IT.... im done with his shit))

soo yea im happy i gott job and all theres just a couple things im worried about


1. How im going to get there everyday.... ((its not like muh mom can take me... cause i go in at 4:45ish....an i cant really ride the buss))
2. I hope i dont get beat up by an old person



okay soo i guesss thats it... nvm.....

http://www.jellyjumper.com/lang/en/



goo there and PLAY it... its gay... but funn at the same time....

DROP AND GIVE ME HEARD NIGGUH

im not a cutter or ne thing but i liked this poem.....

Dear Razor;;Dear cutter

Dear Razor,

your always by my side

you were there for me when I cried.

When he left me, you were the one I came to

you showed me who I really was, yes that's true.

You are my best-friend

but, he didn't like you, it was time us to end

I didn't like it, neither did you

soon after I learned to live with it, my confidence grew.

I promised him I wouldn't use you

so im sorry razor this is the end for us two

ps. When I promised him I wouldn't use you

I had my fingers crossed, Id miss the pain you drew

your best-friend,

Cutter.

Dear Cutter,

I understand what your going through

I will always be by your side, if you only knew

I don't like causing scars on your body,

I tried to tell you, soon you would become nobody

the only one to make you change is yourself,

and running to me every time wouldn't help itself

I will stick by you for the rest of your life,

im better than your knife.

And I know you promised you wouldn't use me

but I give it a week, and you'll be back and ill set you free

ps. Think before you let go of me,

think about what I said, I can set you free.

Your truly,

Razor

((stollen from someone offa myspace haha))

dear kendra

If u give me a dollar I'll let u take a peek at these...dont look now i've got my boobies out and i'm gonna show everyone time....when i get to drinking i just show the world now just hope u never drink with me.

feels like soo soo good GIVE ME HEAD HOE...GIVE ME HEAD HOE GIVE ME HEAD TILL IM DEAD HOE!! feels like im in yo pussy when ur sucking my dick. i like it when u moan and grown and make that sound..slob on mi nob till ur pussy throbs. give me head hoe give me head kendra give me head till im dead!!

I want kendra to give me head cuz shes a HOE and shes met mi mom and dad....she can give head when im in mi ride.....4th of july.....shoot it everywhere while im beating mi meet..it feels so good when she suckin mi dick...feels like im in her pussy..when she suckin on mi dick!! MY DICK

theres a teaar in mi beer cuz she wont give me head dear she is on mi lonely mind. into these last few days...i have cummed a million times u areon mi lonely mind im gonna keep cummin until im satisfied..theres sum sperm in mi beer cuz im cummin for u dear u are on mi lonely mind!!

bj's little girl....bjs little kendra brings new life to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee though we're apart the thoughts follow me of u giving me head...and i smileee and i radiate the glow around mi penis!!

bj yea bj yea bj i want one oh please oh please oh please just suck on my dick!! tear on mi hair cuz kendra ur a fucking hoe...suck mi dick..on this aint no joke a nigguhs gotta get head goody good it better be if it aint ill refer mi nigguhs to a betta hoe! !yea i fuckin no u all u do is suck dick...waitin for me so u can suck..all i do is lay there and watch u bob untill i cum...make mi eyes go hazy sitting there all lazy this dont even phase me!! oh please oh please oh please just give me just one more blow job!!

Kendra.... u have a magnetic pen.......... ?????













((remind everyone that there was a paper clip.... pinned on it... hahahaha))

Kendra.... wats a theroy??
bj.... its
Kendra....is it like leroys big brother....
bj... i think muh feet got bigger....
Kendra... y...
BJ.... idk.. they just never looked this big b4

hahahahahahaha

key board abuse

BJ: god fucking damn ur feet are HUGE
Stearling...yea
bj.... can i try them on....
stearling wat?
bj.... ur shoes.....
stearling... hahahahah yea sure
bj.... OMFG there sooo big... i think i lost muh feet.....
stearling... haha......
bj.... AHHHHHH
stearling.... can i have muh shoes back.....
bj.... no
stearling... okay ima take a pic then
bj... haha okay....
stearling..... hahaha
bj.... okay u can have them back....
stearling.. okay......
bj WAIT.... dont put them on yet.... try on muh shoes....
stearling no
bj... please
stearling.... no... last time i tryed on someones shoes... i dislocated something.....
bj.... in the shoe???
stearling... hahahahahaha..... ur dumb
bj.. i know... sometimez.... sorri ima lil slow.....
stearling NOOOO IN MUH FOOT....
BJ... hahah oo okay....


wow wat a night...... everyone passed out... and me crista and stearling...... passed out...... and they made me take shot with them... of vodka... and i DIDNT puke.... or become a maga bitch... haha....

I WANT TO KNOW ABOUT FUCKING BALLONS GOD FUCKING DAMN IT.....

WAKA GOOMBA WAKA GOOMBA WAKA!

"Jumping all over muh shit"


DONT EVER SAY THAT AGAIN DAD.... GEEEZ US

soo yea know that saying FUCK ME RUNNING....


well u know how everyone thinks it aint possible... well IT IS!!!



me and Kendra tryed it........ and there is 2 wayz that we can think of......

1. do the whellbarrow thingger......
2. on a treadmill

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA



WAKA WAKA WAKA

stupid shit on myspace.....

GAY!!

title "What a kiss/gesture REALLY means

-Kiss on the Forehead; I hope we're together forever.
-Kiss on the Lips; I like you.
-Kiss on the Hand; I adore you
-Holding Hands; We definitely like each other.
-Slap on the Butt; That's mine.
-Holding on tight; I don't want to let go.
-Looking into each other's Eyes; I just plain like you.
-Playing with Hair; Tell me you love me.
-Arms around the Waist; I like you too much to let go.
~Laughing while Kissing; I am completely comfortable with you.\


MUH TITLE
**How a guy tryes to get into ur pantz**

-Kiss on the Forehead; Come on just bone me already
-Kiss on the Lips; Maybe if i kiss her on the lipz it will hurry up the process
-Kiss on the Hand; Maybe this will work
-Holding Hands; If i hold her hand i can slowly get it down muh pants soo she can fell how big muh penis is
-Slap on the Butt; OMG i just need layed
-Holding on tight; **usally happends after u get in her pantz if shes lucky
-Looking into each other's Eyes;Are we gonna have sex sometime SOON
-Playing with Hair;maybe pulling her hair will turn her on
-Arms around the Waist; Maybe i should get closer then she will blow me
~Laughing while Kissing; omg i cant beleve im doin this o well LETS HUMP













((not tru for ALL guyz... but MOST god im emo :( ))

Ughhh today sucks ALREADY....


FUCK SHIT DAMN..............

i hope this day gets better.... or it will just make tom. worse.... and the next day and the next day and FOREVER.... god damn

this is wat all happend today....

1. had to go back to school....
2. i was STILL thinking bout the whole stupid fucking Ben thing
3. i was thinking bout how muh dad pretty much wished mine Karrie and Kendraa's death....
4. after i got all ready and shit i was waiting to check muh myspace... and Rhonda told me that an ASSHOLE called last night and told her to tell me that he loves me :(
5. gott to school... and just EVERYONE pissed me off for NO reason
6. had to put up with people's shit allll day
7. couldnt eat all muh lunch cause i was too upset and not hungry
8. puked on the buss
9. SOMEONE FUCKED WITH ME WHILE I WAS SLEEPING ((i cant fucking stand that))
10. to to vo-tech... and had to do something STUPID.....
11. had to put up with all the fucking drama ((and it seemed SOOOO much worse today maybe just cause i was in a bad mood))
12.got home..... and had to go up to the mannor cause i forgot to the other day
13. found out they lost all muh fucking paper work and had to do it all over again
14. got home and for some reason got really sick again..... and puked.....
15. got a phone call from the ASSHOLE that called last night
16. he told me he loved me.....
17. he tryed to make me SAY IT BACK....
18. muh mom bitched cause i wouldnt tell her who i was talkkin to.....
19. found out that i missed muh fucking BC shot... and now i gotta go up there and make up some excuss again.....
20. got another phone call from the ASSHOLE again....... tellin me this time... that hes comeing back to the statets *pa other wise**
21. the ASSHOLE is trying to get me to come over to his house this weekend
22. Rich is trying to make me Jelousse again... by tellin me bout his sex life.....((AND I DONT FUCKING CARE AND ITS NOT GOING TO FUCKING WORK FUCK U TOOOOO NIGGUH))

YEPP I THINK THATS BOUT IT... WELL I THINK IMA GO TAKE A NAP CAUSE.. YEA.....

definiton of love
a strong positive emotion of regard and affection
have a great affection or liking for



SHUT THE FUCK UP U STUPID NIGGER........

soo yea... Rhonda just made muh day 150 times better.....



FUCK SHIT DAMN.... UGHHHHHHHHHHHH



**i gotta phone call last night from someone i DONT wannna/care to hear from.....


and they told her to tell me they fucking luv me.... UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH**

MUH NIGHTMARES BACK :(

cont. from muh vaction


**Saturday**
Saturday.... i went to Ben's by muh self... got high with James..... and thats bout it.... next morning i wook up.... and i walked home... got ot like dg and mom and dad picked me up.... and yea thats pretty much all i did.... **this is when the bad vacation started***


**Sunday**
Karrie came over..... and we chilled here for a while... then went toJimmy's ..........and Partyed..... and...............

Karrie peeed her pantz
Kevie got his nipplez pierced....
and that aabout all.....

**Monday**
WENT TO BENS ((dont fell like blogging bout BEN'S house anymore... because im pretty pissed......

**Tuesday**
BEN'S.... bad bad day.... dont wanna talk bout it soo im done blogging


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Soo me and Karrie both pretty much fucker up our whole weekend/vacation.....


we spent the WHOLE time with someone we though we LIKED..... and then last night/today went HORRIBLE.......


soo yea... now we are all like FUCK SHIT DAMN.... ughh.... and we hate them.... BOTH them.....


i want to know wat happend..... they were both all like all over us all fucking weekend..... and then today... neather of them would talk to us.... FUCK guyz... there dicks


geeez-us fucking crest..... fuck this... i give up....

soo today's going pretty GAY.... yeppper... blog bout it later <33

soo yea im at Jimmy's and o camt rea;;u see thje screem frp, wjere o, sottomg///// bit o,a b;g/////





spp yea..... i dont really know....... i just wnated to blog... cause i was dow stairs.... and i was like... tell me to type something.... tell me tell me tell me..... and Jiimmy was like..... umm... this comeputer wasnmt really on..... cause yea..... and i was like... o well just tell me wat to type.... and he was like... y dont u go uupstraid...
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soo i dont reamber wat i jusst was tryping DAMN IT....... fuck..... umm.... o yea


soo he was lke go up stairs and blog... soo i was like okay....soo now im bloging bout a hole buncha nothing... haha.... DAMNIT.... where did muh cig... go.... shit fuck dmn...hope we all burn down.... OPPZ i mean i hope we all DONT burn down haha..... Where ta going.... i dont know... haha .... damn.... i wish i could firure out was im trypieing about............ haha Jimmy's taking pic of me... and he cant really stand


umm... Stearloing... just like pushed a buncah keeys.... and messed me all up.... this is .... weird..... Kevia.//// os kist ;ole stamdomg jere///////////i llike to eat other girls pussies be cuz they are hot and sassy!!!!!

i

I ate some bugs
I ate some grass
I used muh hand to wipe muh............. tears away.....


haha.... thanx to Sean... and Ben this freacking songs stuck in muh fuckin head.....


Its from Nacho Libra haha funny... watch


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**Smacks butt while sleeping**


do you like that??


yea soo i was sleeping last night and Ben smack muh butt and asked me if i liked that while he was SLEEPING..... haha.... and i laughed for like an hour.....


hes a freacking bed hog... i feel off the bed.. like 20 timez last night..... and he kept elbowing me DAMNIT......

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soo YAY its vacation..... and we get to hang out with Karrie like all vacation....

((vacation so far))

**Thursday **.... we both didnt go to vo-tech... and me and Carrie Martin..... walked down town after we got outta school..... cause we were going to meet Karrie Miller at Sheetz..... we seen the bus go by....an no Karrie.... soo then i tryed callin Danny's..... and she was there.... she asked wat we were doin and iw as trying to tell her.... and muh phone died.... soo we just walked to Danny's... when we got there Jonnie was walkking down the cematary.... soo we wwere like fuck shit damn... wat are we going to do.... then we desided to go to Jeff's... soo we all pilled in Karrie's mom's car...... and we took Carrie home.....Karrie's mom took us to muh house.... we all chilled here for a while.... and then Jonnie got pissed ((like always)) and took off..... sooo then like 5 mins later me and Karrie left... and walked to Jeff's..... we really didnt do very much of ne thing.. there.... except... all most got attacked by Jeff's iggy ((thingger idk wat its called)).... and then Jeff took his other thingger out..((lil furry UGLY thinggy....... EWWWWWWWWWW)) and droped it on me... cause i told him i was like deadly afraid of lil rodent things... ha.......then we came home and all just chilled.......for awhile\

**Friday**- Friday...me and Karrie got up... and just layed up stairs watching cartoons..... then Kendra came over and we layed up stairs some more and watched some cartoons..... then around 3ish... we desided we were hungry..... soo..... weee came down stairs and asked muh mom for a ride...... ((she DIDNT give us time to get dressed)) soo when we got to Costa's we all desided that we didnt wanna carry bags home..... soo we... went to McDicks..... we sat there for a while.... then Jimmy came down.... then Carly called Kendra and told her that she was there soo we had to run cause Kendra was "sick" soo we all went to JImmy .... when we got there we check out his NEW room.... and then we looked at the OLD room... and it was NASTY.... EWWIE... GROSS.. ICK.. LOL..... then we just chilled for a while... then Jimmy's dad gave us a ride home...... when we got home we did a whole buncha NOTHING...... then at like.... 9ish... we desided to go to Kendra's and watch movies......and at like.... 10ish.... Ben calls us..... and tells us that we HAVE to come over.... so we were like okay....((AND I FEEL BAD FOR DITCHING KENDRA AND JIMMY..... SORRI GUYZ)) soo Sean came and got us..... and took us over there... and we were going to watch movies... but fucking Aaron and Crystal was there... and they were being ASSSHOLES soo yea..... we all ended up sitting out in the living room.... doing nothing.... lissin to music... and just chillin.....**early Saturday morning**... then when they left we all just kinda migrated to the room..haha.... an we all just layed there...... watching movies.....((F.Y.I NOTHING WENT ON... WITH ANY ONE...)) we stayed up watching movies till like.....5:30 and then everyone passed out.... and me an Ben were the last to awake..... soo Ben desides he wants to watch porn..... soo i was like w/e ima go to sleep..... soo i feel asleep... and 10 mins later Karrie and Sean wake up..... and James comes running in....wook me up...... soo then we all just kinda sat there and chilled...... then at like..... 9:50 we were like FUCK SHIT DAMN.... Karrie and BJ need to leave NOWWWW....((Karrie's mom was suppose to b there at 10.)).... soo we all go tup and ready and then he mom calls and says... that shes gotta get some cloths ready and then she'll b down in like an 1/2 hour.... soo then... yea... we were like THANK FUCKING GOD..... an then we all left at like........10:25ish.... and now im home bored.... HOPEING Karrie DONT have to stay at her G-ma's.... cause that would b GAY....... \


and hoping she can come back over... cause that would b SWEET <33

o yea one last thing.... nice meeting u... James... and Kenny......

soo today i desided to have sex with hair jell.... haha \
\

soo i was telling Kenrda and Karrie bout it... and they both though i was retarded....and they tho that it would dry and me and who ever that was having sex... would stick together... and i would have to call 911........

soo then 4 seconds later..... i was like hmm ima try..... \
\
soo then i got some jell on muh fingers and like sat there jacking offf muh fingers..... and Karrie and Kendra sat there and watched me for a min... then hey both grabed the jell and put some on there fingers too
\

and we found out... it prolly IS possible to have sex with jell and it DONT dry out for a while.... but WHEN it DOES dry out..... then just put some more on ;)


god i luv them 2.... and we do some STUPID shit.. haha\

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***new nike namez**

Kendra- moose the losse duck

BJ- ((o man forgot... i'll come back dont worri))

one of these dayz... Kendra and I are going to b driving down the freacking road... and she is going to have to pee... soo we will pull over.....


and outta no where ((NO WOODS)) a moose is going to jump out....


and tackle her.....

and im going to laugh cause she thinks there all cute and shit...... and she dont beleve me that its going to happend

In Arizona!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






































((shhhhh i aint really going to laugh cause that would prolly hurt just a lil bit))

i think i like him.... BUTT dont know if i could date him....


i dont another Phil Tomb relationship :(


**confussed***

explanation for thouse who dont know wat im talkkin bout....

one word pretty much JOANNA..... damn it....

they have a kid.... soo shes alwayz there....


ughh....

o yea and ONE MORE thing....


he NEEDS to stop complaning to me... how he needs laid... and he needs a gurlfriend... and he misses everyone back in Denver...... UGHH GAY... i DONT wanna hear it.....


o yea and he needs to stop asking MEE y Jimmy dont invite him over Saturdays ne more.... GEEZ-US... i aint tellin he can ask Jimmy damn it....




**kk happy mood**

:d

and he NEEDS to stop calling me fucking sexy lady....


i HATE IT....

god fucking geez-us christ...... fucking damn it ((makes nosence i know ha)

dont ya think he would get the point... after that one night... he tryed gettin in muh pants... and i told him to get the fuck off me... i want NOTHING to do with him.... and i turhfully only hang out with him cause hes THERE......


god fucking damn it... there goes the rest of muh fucking day..... FUCK GUYZ they all need there ballz choped off and shoved down there god damn throats.... DAMN!!!


((well MOST them do /\))


UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ((im talkkin bout Kenny fuck J))

soo yea im being pretty emo right now...... blah.... an i wanna go to sleep but its only like 8ish....


i miss alot of people..... some of them i SHOULDNT miss.. but do ne wayz.... gay...


i was talkkin to someone last night **insert name here**... and he made me relize i have nothing going for me... in muh life....

muh grades suck
ima prolly withouth a doubt b in 10th grade next year
i miss school atlest once a week
i write muhself excusses to get out atlest 2 times a week....
i smoke to much pot...
i drink to much
dont do homework
sit around all day... and do NOTHING
i hang out with a whole buncha older people... and get reps for it.. like WHORE....
i just dont care bout ne thing ne more
i could care less wat i look like.... gave up with trying to make muh self look pretty......
party all the fuck time
always in trouble

**all the things HE said was wronge with me or wat i do wronge... if u must**


soo yea... i think he was pretty much saying ima loser at life..... and need to give up on it

THANX A FREACKING LOT.. THAT MADE ME FEEL ABOUT 10X FUCKING BETTER... GOD!

god damn y do i gotta know soo many WEIRD/NASTY/EWWIE people


1. i know someone that fucked there dog
2. i know something that MIGHT just b fucking there cuzzin
3. i know someone that would fuck there sister
4. i know someone that WANTS to do stuff with animals
5. i know someone that DID sleep with there cuzzin B4 they knew it was there cuzzin...


GOD DAMN.... FUCKING PEOPLE THESE DAYZ

soo we stayed out REALLY late tonite... .like 2ish.... and the whole time... we....



sat at bp ((like alwayz)) till like.... 11..... then we went to Ben's house.... watched napoline dynomyte ((i know i DONT know how to spell)) and in the middle we all got kinda bored... soo we all just sat around and dick off..... and it was funn.... then everyone desided to touch each others SPOTS.... ughh.. haha... then Sean gave me a ride home.... WOOT lol...



soo now i wanna HUMP-A-SOMETHING... ((new saying)) haha......


and now im bored... soo yea... <3

soo yea.... ima have nightmares... EWWWWWWWWWWWWW...... muh friend... well i dont think ima talk to him ne more... just told me... that he had sex with a fucking DOG.. EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWIE.... thats soo nasty... GOD **pukes a lil in mouth**

i farted... well playing hack tonite... haha infront of a buncha boys.... haha... idoit <33

sooo.... i skiped school today... and was walkkkin home... cause i had no where eles to go... and i got to muh road... and Jonnie and Jeff.... picked me up..... we went to Jeff's an they mad me watch porn GAY.... and then we desided to go ridding around... we went to the school and they rolled down the window and mad alot of noise.... DUMB.... soo then we went up to Jed's and picked him and RAlph...... then we went up this BIG mountain in the middle of no where... to get Jed's.... thingger out... we got up there couldnt get it out....... soo we went back to Jed's rents house.... to get a chain thingger.... then we went in there back field thing... and was playing around... soo we got stuck..... then we called aaa to get us out..... soo then they came and got stuck... and had to call another toe truck thingger............ they came and they got stuck too..... soo they called aanother....... one... and they came.... and now there all still sitting..... down there... trying to get it out.... and im home..... yep....<3

((this is going to sound a lil weird)) this is bullshit... everyone in muh fucking house wears the same size close....and everyone fuckings steels mine ALL THE FUCKING TIME.... eather muh mom wears them and ruins them at work..... or Rhonda wears them somewhere..... and leaves them somewhere.... or draws on them.... SICK OF IT DAMN IT.....


New Goal...= GAIN LIKE A 100 AND 50 FUCKING POUNDS... SOO THEN EVERYONE WONT WEAR MUH GOD DAMN CLOTHS......


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soo i got on myspace tonite... like every other night.... right... i was going throw all muh friends.... and i saw that Brea's page was back on muh myspace... and i though it was weird... cause i forgot that i added her to muh new one... like... almost a 2mounth ago...:(... and i got all excited.... and i went to her page... and saw the pic.. of me Kendra... her and Tony... and then i started to cry....

everyone says its SUPPOSE to get better..... but ITS NOT.... damnit!!....... **tears**

R.I.P hunni.... u wont EVER b forgotten<33

When someone asks u to dance.... say NOO!!! cause......



Okay, so I came over here to ask you to dance, but I'm kind of concerned. I mean, we could hit it off really well, end up having a few drinks, next thing you know you're giving me your number because I'm too shy to ask for it, I finally get up the nerve to call and we take in a movie, have some dinner, I relax, you relax, we go out a few more times, get to know each other's friends, spend a lot of time together, then finally have get past this sexual tension and really develop this intense sex life that is truly incredible, decide our relationship is solid and stable, so we move in together for a while, then a few months later get married, I get a promotion, you get a promotion, we buy a bigger house. You really want kids, but I really want freedom, but we have a kid anyway, only to find that I am resentful, the sparks start to fade and to rekindle them we have two more lovely kids, but now I work too much to keep up with the bills, have no time for you, you're stressed and stop taking really good care of yourself, so to get past our slow sex life and my declining self-confidence I turn to an outside affair for sexual gratification. You find out because I'm careless and a lousy liar, you throw me out (justifiably so) and we have to explain to the kids why mommy and daddy are splitting up. That's just too sad. Think about the children. For God's sake, if you dance with me and we hit it off, let's just keep it sexual, because we both know where it's going.

((alright dont ask.. i was talkkin to some random weird guy online..... and this was our conversation lol))


u know u are a partyer WHEN........

1. If you have any sort of alcholic bottles in ur room... up on display
2. if u have any sorta think u MADE to smoke.... pot outta ....
3. if u have an article of someone eles clothing.......rather u wore it home... or its just there
4. if u have guyz boxers... or womens underwear....



there was more that he said... but i dont reamber.. them

haha.... i though it was funny..... soo i HAD to blog!! <33

tru bestfriend <33333

luv us!!!

Stearling- yea im sorri... i tryed... but its not gonna happend tonite hes got wiskey dick
me- o okay.... ummm thanx i guess... haha...
Stearling- yep no problem... im the man... at hooking people up
me- yea yea.... hah.... damn that sucks....
Stearling- just go in the room... with him right now... and try to get him hard see wat happpends
me- i think i need more beer
stearling- noo just go do it......
me- okay...


soo i go into the room... and strealing folllowz me... lol ((i dont know))
soo they leave to talk


and then not even an hour later... we were doin the NASTY!! haha


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the only reason i posted this is because i wanna know wat WISKEY DICK IS..... god fucking damn it!! <33

never though i would b scared for life from sex... hahahahah <33

((countined from "list for Kendra"





Darren!!

welll yea see yea... im at bob' s hopuse... an yea... im sure u can amainge...((dont know how to spell that))....... and everyones yea... U KNOW!!! and wow... haha.... someones talkkkin b outg murdering someone haha.... .and yea... someone... tryed to get me to "sober there ass up" haha...... weidn.... now ther trying to... yea.. haha... late <3

soo yea... i HAVE indeed been a bitch the last could dayz... wtf i dont really know y... lol.... but Jimmy though i was mad at him... and i though he was mad at me and neather of us were really mad.....


and then i though kendra was iggnoring me..... and yea


then last night i guess Kendra and Jimmy planed on taking me out for ice cream

and if i WOULDNT go... then they were going to tie me up and tape muh mouth shut... haha.....



and i though Kendra meet that they were going to get me drunk and take me out for ice cream.... some how.... soo i was like... hahahahaha...... and then outta no where i was like that might not turn out very good.. haha EVERYONE will know... and she was like everyone will know wat.... and i was like... that im drunk.... then she was like WAIT ur drunk ?? and i was like noo... when we went out for ice cream... ahhahahah <333

if u wanna b muh luver... u gotta get with muh friends.... blah blah blah





spice gurls ROCK MUH WORLD!!!

at 6 in the morning <33

wat a night... WOW....

yea soo i desided that i was going to go to a party in smethport.... with NO ONE I knew..... except for 2 people.... yea... dumb idea... it was going all sweel....

we started drinking at like 3..... and we were all just playing cards and shit...... then some more people showed up.. it was funn.... all the guyz were playing video gamez and shit...BORING.... but w/e.... then these gurls showed up.... and they brought strawberry's.... then we all started drinking strawberry daquaries... it was funn ((didnt puke... and DIDNT get mean and bett the shit outta ne one))..... then this one guy Adam... got all pissed off and shit... and started braking shit.. he broke 4 windowz and like 2 doorz... soo then someone said something bout hiding... soo i went in the bathroom.. and was hiding... i ran outta drink.. soo i went to get up and get more... but i droped the cup... it broke... soo i dove onto the floor.. looking for it... and then i picked it up throw it in the toilet... and flushed....... most of it went down lol...


((THEN IT WENT BAD))....
i went out.. and was chillin an shit... and this fucking fat bitch... walked into Adam's house... and was like....YEA... EVERYONE OUT... noowwww.... and she came up to me... and was like.... i said EVERYONE OUT NOWW... or ima call the copz.....

as SOOON as i heard the word COPZ... i was OUT... and i went fast......

me Brandon... an Paul.. RAN for the door.. put our shoez on... and ran like hell.......((note i have NEVER been to smethport in muh life... and i was TRASHED))....... i got to like the dg and this guy called me....((i was pretending to b some Amy the whole nite... dont ask??)) soo then i was like omfg omfg omfg i aint got ne where to go... the party i was just at is gettin busted... and yea.. omfg omfg omfg... soo then he was like want me to come get u.. andi was like YEA.... i got like 5 dollz... for gas .... come get me NOWW.... then... Janel called me and was like omg omg where are u... and i was like..... i dont know... i dont know... but im gettin outta here.... sooo then she came and got me an we went to her g-ma's house..... haha WHAT A FUCKING NITE... WOWIE....!!!



oa yea byyy the way.... nice meeting u....
angel
Kim
SAm
Adam
Clause
Brandon
Paul
and sorri bout i dont reamber the other kids name... Doug maybe??? idk


NICE MEETING U... lol <33

WOOT ima b on america's next FAT model... haha.....<3

okay... soo me and Kristan are going to steel a train..... and make a tv show called pimp muh train... GET LOTSSSS of money.....and b famous..... Then awe are going to go to some petting zoo somewhere and steel a lama..... and name it Tina YAY!!... lol.....and its going to be GREAT!!!

sick of all the bullshit......
god.... REAL friends DONT fight like this
Jonnie u just need to GROW UP
i mean come on...... who does wat ur doin
NO ONE I KNOW
and u aint gotta talk shit.... to make everyone eles hate me
GOD..... FUCK U ASSHOLE!!



i'm losing everyone

lost Brea :( rip Baby
losing Kendra in 3 months....
and now i lost Jonnie
next will b Jeff
then Karrie
then Carrie
then i'll b friendless


WHAT THE FUCK EVER

fuck u JOnnie......

just caus eu fucking hate me....

dont me u have to make everyone eles hate me...

god damn...!!!

sick of this shit.... WAT WAS I THINK.... when i came upwith the idea to "like" JOnnie to brake him and his gurlfriend up..... DUMB

yea soo i didnt go to school today.... cause of the fucking bussdriver....... ONCE AGAIN... its the buss driver's fault... never had ne problem's last year when Bill was driving.... GAYYY

luvz this pic... makes me feel PRETTY....and i LUV muh eyez <33....((witch im NOTT!!))

okay... im here again.... fuck all that......\/

I JUST NEED FUCKING LAID.... UGHHHH!!!!

oa yea one more thing... bout the blog below.........



I CANT STAND MUH FUCKING PARENTS NE MORE....


the other day.... they flat out told me ima failure... and that they want me to b something im NOTTTTT and wont ever b....

PERFECT.....


FUCK THAT....


NITENITE

ughh ughh ughh.... soo tonite SUCKS.... i think bout one thing... and EVERYTHING comez out... grr.... i really really miss Brea... **tear**.... and i DONT want Kendra to leave... i'll b NOTHING without her.... i dont know wat i'll do... yea... soo i'll have
JOnnie
Jeff
Karrie
Carrie
and everyone eles... but Kendra.... shes just like ..... muh better ((and when i say BETTER i mean better half im NOTHING))..... and i dont know wat im going to do without ((great... made muh self cry AGAIN)).....



and even tho Kendra dont want me to drop outta school... cause she dont want to come back and find out.. ima loser at life..... but im sorri... it MIGHT just happend....a. its TOOOOOOO stress full..... i just CANT take it ne more.... im done... i cant....


DONT WORRI KENDRA... i wont b a loser drop out.... i WILL get muh ged.... the DAY i turn 18... i PROMISE....((and u know how that PROMISE word works..... )).....


i guess i am a failer.. muh rents are right... im NOTHING... just... another... stupid... fat.... ugly... dumb... retarded... POT HEAD.....

GOD... I HATE FUCKING LIFE.....


i just want to move FAR FAR AWAY.... soo that i dont have to put up with this bullshit nemore

i amount to NOTHING....

GREAT... heather's online... thats just going to make things ALOT fucking better.....


w/e,,, im going to bed now.....


<333 failure......

DAMN-IT DAMN-IT... DAMN-IT..... ughhh... gurlz are gay.. they all need to die... well most them... lol..... ((dont ask....))

yea soo i got outta school early today.. and went up to Jeff's house... to hang out with him and JOnnie.... Jeff left..... and OMFG Jonnie annoyed me... then Jeff got back took Jonnie to work.. then camr back... and made me watch freacking porn with him GAY!!!! ((not GAY porn lol)).... and then.... I DIDNT EVEN GET NE THING OUTTA IT gay gay gay but thats bout it


then on the way home... he begged me to tell him muh REAL name.... and he guessed and guessed... then he pulled over and stoped... and guessed some more.....


then i was like FINE ... irs Brittnay Jean... and he was okay ok... I WONT TELL NE ONE SWARE... then hes like okay ready this is going to b our "thing".... muh BJ has a first name its B-R-I-T-T--A-N-Y muh bj has a secon name its J-E-A-N.......because she has a way with ..... IDK....**both gigglez**.......

god i fucking luv that kid... hes sooooo stupid..... CRACKER!!!

yea soo im bout half sick of fucking living here... it's all fine and dandy till muh mom comez home... then its hell... i HATE it.... i need to take like a vacation and stay at someones house for a week or 2 or 3... even.. that would b great.... and now im even more pissed... cause muh fucking sister got her lip pierced... AFTER.... i was suppose to get mine done for CHRISTMAS.... gay... but w/e....


GAY GAY GAY GAY GAY GAY


FUCKKKKKKKKKKK

((soo i luv how i ALWAYZ make time to blog haha)) yea soo me Jonny and Kendra went to church this morning.... BAKED!!!.... Jeff was suppose to come but then he got all pissed off at JOnny.... hmm.... well now i gotta go to muh grand-ma's... (wish i would have smoked with Jonny again b4 he left would have been soo much BETTER).... ughh well we are leaving now lata





<33 bj

soo i had the fucking crap scared outta me..... ok... me and Kendra and Jimmy were at Jimmy's house.... and we were waiting for Jeff to get back soo we can get a ride home.... when he got back.. he came in and lalala.. yea... and then we left... when we got in the car... and got to the top of JImmy's road.. Jeff goes...."o yea i dont have brakes" me and Kendra start freeking....((we were indeed baked)) and then we got to sheetz... and JOnnie and Jeff start freeking... and are like omg.. y are thouse copz sitting there... ahh ahhh.. and fuckin they didnt have brakes soo that made it even worse..... soo we all buckled up really fast... and TRYED to act straight HAHA it was kinda hard... soo then we all like tweeked the whole way home.. and keep looking behind us and everything... haha it was funny... then JOnnie was like OMFG wat if they are going to take us down tonite... wat if thats wat there doin.... and the dumb ass i am... was like " can u take us home b4 u let them catch u... im not in the right state of mind to b talkkin to copz right at this point... WAIT WAIT i know i'll act like a lil kid and maybed ..... NOOOOOOO i'll act like a retard..."wat it do police officer" haha... and then we all just laughed the whole way home... hahah

GOOD TIMEZ WITH THE ((cant think of wat the 4 of us are called right now))

home sick

blah.... im board.... and home sick... no one online it sucks.... GAY... and its only like 2.... gay gay gayg

sooo i really really want to blog right now but i cant cause of REASON.... <33

pickin noses

o Kendra and I were making up something and the i was like "SHHHWEAT!!" and Kendra was like did u just say "shhweat" and i goes "yea idk..." and then we found it so funnie and made it be like swoosh+sweet put together so we would pick our nose in a circle and pull it out and be like shhhhweat!! then we found it hilarious and we tried to high5 and we COMPLETELY MISSED lmao it was funny

JOnnie

Jonnie is muh besttest freaking friend.....i <33 him.... and miss him cause i aint seen him in like FOREVER cause of his stupid x..... YAAAAAAAAAAAA..... lol and now im talkkin to him <3..... YAY!!!!



I <33 ya Jonnie

sooo im on the phone with Jonnie right now <33.... and hes watching midget porn haha.... O NO someone just walked in.... and hes gonna get caught watching porn... haha..... god i luv this kid <33

YAY!!!! we might just get to keep our pupppie <33

alright soo dont ask wat this is about.. i was baked one nite... and got board.. soo i though of a conversation between me Kendra and Jeff

and i HAD to blog about it... cause it showz how dumb i am.. and its FUNNNNNY!!!


Jeff- omfg i ate this chees omlet today and the cheese was soo good
BJ- omg i luv cheese
kendra omg you chould see how much cheese she eats
BJ i love it i eat it on everything
Jeff- dont u ever got constipated?
BJ- NO
Jeff- how
BJ- i dont know i just dont
Jeff- well im pretty baffled
BJ- i dont know just ask..... never mind u wont ever be able to get a hold of him


all3 together- HAHAHAHHH

Valentin's.

VALENTIN'S 2/14/07
Valentin's day sucks, its gay
its just another boring day
just another day that makes me want to fall down a hill
and makes me wanna kill
anyone that says HAPPY VALENTIN'S DAY
to me again... i'll just be like hey
DIE FUCKER
yea I'll b our valentine
wat would u like.....
a new shiny bike
or a couple of bloody towlz
or how bout a couple wooden dowlz?
pushed into muh head
for everytime i heard the 3 word's
HAPPY VALENTIN'S DAY



WOULD U LIKE TO B MUH BLOODY VALENTIN?

soo i have noticed when i was younger i had BAD taste... WOW.. lol.. i was lookin at pic.. of muh x boyfriendss from back in the day and DAMN they wernt HOTT.... lol.... iiight well Rhonda wants on soo lata <333

~ME~-awwwz look how cute muh dogg is while hes lettin me hold him :D
~!Richie!~ : yea he is just like u ur cute

~!Richie!:soo wat r u doin hun??
~ME~:nothing chillin... and thinking bout stuff u??
~!Richie!~: oo nothing chillin and thinkin too..... wat r u thinkin bout??
~ME~:nothing just stuff from the past :(
~!Richie!~:do i have ne thing to do with it??
~ME~:i dont know i aint going to start complaining cause then i'll just get all BLAH
~!Richie!~: i know u problly won't beleave me but i do miss u
~ME~:i miss u too somtimez <33



NOW WAT I WANT TO KNOW IS IF HE MEANT IT??? CAUSE THAT WOULD MAKE ME SMILE :D






tis him.. not the best pic... REALLY REALLY old one.... and he dont loook like such a fag ne more... haha <33 him

soo that song

soo that song that me and Kendra are like INLUV WITH..... well this is how we see our life's turning out....




here is how I see it.......

**8years from now**

Bj and Kendra both marry some massive druggy PILL POPPERS......

Kendra separates from her husband for a while and has an apt. of her own.

Bj smokes pot gets busted...goes home to find her husband high as always and he starts flippin out on her and he's a DICK..so bj calls Kendra whom lives maybe 20mins away and asks if Bj can stay at Kendra's house AGAIN ((this happens quite often))

so bj leaves her house...goes to the bar and waits for me to come get her n while shes waiting she is having a drunken convo about how her life sux with the bartender and then i get there and we talk cuz we are bestfriends like that .....

and then it happens to me where i have to stay at ur house


man our lives are gonna suck lmao

soo last nite Jeff came up with an idea to play...smack a mole with muh feet.... soo he was like.. just poke them out fast and then pull them back in fast... soo i was like ok.. not knowing wat he was doin.. haha.. and then he hit muh foot really really hard... and then Kendra and JOnny joined in an i was like IM NOT goint 3 diff wayz.. haha... soo then i ended up doin it ne wayz and it was funny

soo how many people do u know that has an inside joke with there self?/

i do

hah

one nite me and Kendra were sittin up in her room smoking.... and outta no where i was like... yea soo muh pritcher called to pritch today.... hahaha

and Kendra was like WAT!!???

and i was like... haha nvm i guess thats an inside joke with muh self... hahaha

ok soo we were talkkin bout how Jeff and JOnnie are gay together ((there NOT really))



Jeff: "lissin guyz me and JOn have sex in our heads all the time we just dont it for real cause we dont want to be gay"

LAUGHS

Kendra : soo i think Jeff buyz pot just for us
bj: y
Kendra: cause he just called and was like "i got US some weed its an 8th i think it should last US.....and then i was like... wait whoz us.... and he was like me u and BJ
BJ: haha thats ok im luvin it.... hahah... its like McDonald's...get it haha

aaaNOOKERZ

yea... soo i think the reason i like that song ((sitting at a bar)) is cause thats the way i see muh life going down.... umm hmm just if u get a chaance u GOT to download it and just lissin to the word u'll understand :D

LUVZ THIS SONG <3

Rehab - Sitting At A Bar

Bartender I really did it this time
Broke my parole to have a good time
When I got home it was 6 a.m.
The door was locked so I kicked it in
She was trippin' on the bills
I think she was high on some pills
She through my shit out into the yard
Then she called me a bum and smacked me real hard
And in my drunkin' stooper
I did what I should of never done
Now I'm sittin' here talking to you
Drunk and on the run

I'm sittin' at a bar on the inside
Waitin' for my ride on the outside
She broke my heart in the trailer park
So I jacked the keys to her fuckin' car
And crashed that piece of shit and then stepped away

You know Moe I'll probably get ten years
So just give me beers til they get here
Yeah I know the sun is comin' up
And ya'll are probably gettin' ready for closin' up
But I'm trying to drown my soul
I'm tired of this life on a dirt road
And everything that I love is gone
And I'm tired of hangin' on

She got me sittin' at a bar on the inside
Waitin' for my ride on the outside
She stole my heart in the trailer park
So I jacked the keys to her fuckin' car
And crashed that piece of shit and then stepped away

(rap)
I guess it's meant to be
Romance is misery
So much for memories
And now I'm headed to the Penitentary
See me on T.V.
The next cop series
I am a danger
I guess I should've done something about my anger
But I'll never learn
Real things I don't concern
I pour kerosene on everything I love and watch it burn
I know it's my fault
But I wasn't happy it was over
She through a fit so I crashed that piece a shit nova

And now I'm goin' back again
Back to the pen to see my friends
And when we all pile out that county van
They'll ask me where I've been

I've been at a bar on the inside
Waitin' for my ride on the outside
She broke my heart in the trailer park
So I jacked the keys to her fuckin' car
Crashed that piece of shit and then stepped away

la..la..la..la...la la la...

yea soo last nite... Jimmy didnt have water...... and we all had to pee outside... it was soo fucking cold.... at one point me and Kendra held it till it hurt.... OUCH.... it hurt really bad... hahah... and then when we finally went out...i couldnt hold muh self up soo i ended up sittin on the step like alwayz.. haha... but i couldnt pee cause it was soo cold.....


this morning.. Kenny and JImmy went to sheetz.. to get some dounuts and when they got back.. they gave one to everyone.. and then they went someone again.. and Kendra got up... and got um... and brought them back and then we got this evil plan to fucking eat them ALLL THEM.. haha...


soo yea we ate ALLL 8 of the dounuts...


then everyone pretty much passed out... and when everyone wook up.. Kenny was asking bout his dounuts and me and KEndra laughed..


hahahaha... good timez... <333

gym classs

yea soo gym class was kinda funn today... lol.. Carrie Martin and me were talkkin and outta no where she goesz... Gym goes soo much faster if u think of everyone naked... hahah... and it was kinda nasty cause we gotta buncha fat people and shit in our gym... and YA eweeeie lol...

sooo Kendra i forgot someone

Rich......

fav saying....

because his eyes dont tear doesnt, mean her heart ;; doesnt cry. & just because she comes off strong doesnt mean theres nothing wrong .



<33 it...

soo yea i got blue hair now


me and Kendra was on the cam the other night... and like EVERYONE asked me if i had blue hair... haha... that happends to me all the time!!

<33

soo me an Kendra walked ALL THE WAY TO RITE-AID IN THE FREZZIN COLD... and got some fake nails..... and then we got to her house... and we put them on together.. just cause thats something we ALWAYZ do together.... and then after we were doin painting them... and everything... i went to lite the bowl... and fucking muh nail caught unfire... hahah


CAUTION- FAKE NAILS ARE FLAMMABLE... haha

Kendra- OMG is that a stem??

me- yea... and grape stem.... HAHAHAHA

yea soooo.....

haha.. mine and Kendra EVIL plan failed.... hahahahahahaha

list for Kendra

Ray
Dustin
Justin
Tony
Travis
Jeff
Josh
Jimmy
Spaz
Dan
Phil
Collin
leroy ((DON'T WANT TO TALK BOUT THIS ONE))
Scotty



i think thats it......

stupid fucking WHORE

yea thats right i called u a WHORE... well maybe u should keep ur legz closed.... god damn... u are fucking 13 years old.... that bullshit.... and hope u get an std and DIE... yea thats right... yea i found out wat u did this weekend..... THATS BULLSHIT.... if fucking hate...u... i wasnt really going to do it ne way.. but just how u said it...."if u are going to fuck my sista u better hurry up and do it cause ima fuck u tonite.... i dont care" yea thats bullshit.... UR A STUPID FUCKIN WHORE.....


STUPID STUPID FUCKING WHORE........

KEEP UR DAMN LEGZ CLOSED

stoner... talk's.. with sober people HAHA

Jeff: " So would you guys ever sleep with me?"
BJ: "no i wouldnt"
Kendra: "i dont know i might and i might not
Jeff: " iight so now i know that u might or might not
Kendra: "yea i might its doubtfull"
Jeff: " im soo conffused on y u wont sleep with me bj"
BJ:" just cause i wouldnt ima virgin
Jeff: "yea right... now i know better then that bj
BJ:"how"
Jeff:" butanywayz y wouldnt u"
BJ: "just cause i wouldnt"
Jeff:" what ever i know u are a lieing"
BJ:" no im not"
Jeff:"reamber that one time"
BJ: **wispers** fuck.... **gigglez** NOOOOOO
Jeff:wat ever
Kendra:"soo does that mean everytime u are alone with a gurl does that mean u try to sleep with her?"
Jeff:"noo"
Kendra: " well u are alone with me and BJ all the time how come u dont try to sleep with us... like have a 3sum...."
BJ: "he said no Kendra"
Jeff: "well because it goes on and off"
Kendra: " does that mean that u sleep with people on and off?"
Jeff: " no... i sleep around for and while... and then i stop... and then i do it again"
BJ: "aint u afraid of gettin std's?"
Jeff: "no... i make sure who i sleep with is clean"
BJ: "wat if they lie"


and then Jeff left to go get Jonny... haha

soo this is wat's going on in muh head right at this moument :(

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin' on the block for dough
Notorious they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone we still a team
Thru your family I'll fulfill your dreams
In the future can't wait to see if you'll
Open up the gates for me
Reminisce sometime the night they took my friend
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still livin' your life after death

Chorus:

Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Everytime I pray
I'll be missing you

Thinking of the day
When you went away
What a life to take
What a bond to break
I'll be missing you

(We miss you, Big....)

It's kinda hard wit you not around
Know you in Heaven smilin' down
Watching us while we pray for you
Everyday we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where I keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts, Big, I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us and the six shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me takin' flics
Makin' hits, stages they receive you on
Still can't believe you're gone
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still livin' your life after death

Chorus

Somebody tell me why...

On that morning
When this life is over
I know, I'll see your face

Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day

Chorus

Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day

Chorus

Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day


as i sit here and lissin to this song /\ soo many thingz go throw muh head....

as i sit here in tears... just wishing everything would get better....

as i sit here thinking that shes not gone

shes just downstate with Fallon

but i know i know shes gone

and i cant do ne thing about it

we all wish she was still here with us

but shes not

i cant even b alone ne more

when im alone all i do it sit and cry...

and think

but then i relize shes in a better place and we all will be back together sometime... later on in life




sooo yea from that lil shitty ass poem or w/e. u want to call it... u can tell im going trow one of muh lil emo mouments.... and though it would b a good idah to lissin to that song... p.diddy... i'll be missing u... but then i started crying again just cause... yea... well ima shut up now... and go up stairs and go to sleep....


<33

ughh this sucks

soo yea im stuck home for a while im happy i aint gotta go to school but still i aint got no cig... nothing to eat... and nothing to do besides sit infornt of the pc trying to find someone to talk to... GAY... and no onez ever on.. during the day.. soo that even worese... but yea... later... just wanted to bitch <3

ughh this sucks

soo yea im stuck home for a while im happy i aint gotta go to school but still i aint got no cig... nothing to eat... and nothing to do besides sit infornt of the pc trying to find someone to talk to... GAY... and no onez ever on.. during the day.. soo that even worese... but yea... later... just wanted to bitch <3