soo this is wat's going on in muh head right at this moument :(

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin' on the block for dough
Notorious they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone we still a team
Thru your family I'll fulfill your dreams
In the future can't wait to see if you'll
Open up the gates for me
Reminisce sometime the night they took my friend
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still livin' your life after death

Chorus:

Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Everytime I pray
I'll be missing you

Thinking of the day
When you went away
What a life to take
What a bond to break
I'll be missing you

(We miss you, Big....)

It's kinda hard wit you not around
Know you in Heaven smilin' down
Watching us while we pray for you
Everyday we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where I keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts, Big, I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us and the six shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me takin' flics
Makin' hits, stages they receive you on
Still can't believe you're gone
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still livin' your life after death

Chorus

Somebody tell me why...

On that morning
When this life is over
I know, I'll see your face

Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day

Chorus

Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day

Chorus

Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day


as i sit here and lissin to this song /\ soo many thingz go throw muh head....

as i sit here in tears... just wishing everything would get better....

as i sit here thinking that shes not gone

shes just downstate with Fallon

but i know i know shes gone

and i cant do ne thing about it

we all wish she was still here with us

but shes not

i cant even b alone ne more

when im alone all i do it sit and cry...

and think

but then i relize shes in a better place and we all will be back together sometime... later on in life




sooo yea from that lil shitty ass poem or w/e. u want to call it... u can tell im going trow one of muh lil emo mouments.... and though it would b a good idah to lissin to that song... p.diddy... i'll be missing u... but then i started crying again just cause... yea... well ima shut up now... and go up stairs and go to sleep....


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ughh this sucks

soo yea im stuck home for a while im happy i aint gotta go to school but still i aint got no cig... nothing to eat... and nothing to do besides sit infornt of the pc trying to find someone to talk to... GAY... and no onez ever on.. during the day.. soo that even worese... but yea... later... just wanted to bitch <3

ughh this sucks

soo yea im stuck home for a while im happy i aint gotta go to school but still i aint got no cig... nothing to eat... and nothing to do besides sit infornt of the pc trying to find someone to talk to... GAY... and no onez ever on.. during the day.. soo that even worese... but yea... later... just wanted to bitch <3

Jonny......

yea soo we were all talkkin like right when jimmy got home from work.. and outta no where Jonny starts talkkin it goez something like this

JOnny- yea soo all i think about all day long is sex... its always SEX SEX SEX..
me and mmy- WHAT!!
JOnny- yea thats right... i think about it in the shower... on the walk to work... all the fucking time ijust cant stop
PAUSE
Jonny- yea im all the time thinking... damn when's the next time im going to get laid.... when do u think it will b
me and mmy- well we dont know...
Jonny- yea i know u dont know.. but neather do i and it buggz me... and yea...
me and mmy- **GIGGLZ**
Jonny- hah no im just fucking with u guyz....
JOnny. me. Jimmy- **gigglz**...
me- omfg u are soo dumb Jonny

finshed from omfg...

dude someone fucking.... ughh.. well now ima finsh it... soo yea.. he comez back in and says that he got kicked out for starting a fire... and everyone though that he meant jimmy or jimmy's dad just kicked him out... for starting a fire soo we were all like omfg... dude... no way.. and just fucking damn.. and then like 20 mins later of all us freacking out... hes like no no not here... at community service.. and we were all just OMFG Jonnie.. omg... and then he was like hahaaa

OMFG

yea soo we are still partying.... and fucking everyone is woundering...and now jonny's planing on punching the copz... in the eye with some nneedlez... nope.. nails... and then he comez back... lookz in the door... and goes i got kicked out cause i started a fire... and everyone

blah board...

yea soo im at a party... but no onez here.... besides me and Rhonda... Jonny and Jeff just left... and fucking i dont think Scott's comeing... and no one eles is going to come i dont think... ughh i cant wait till 2... or atleast till Jonny and Jeff get back... damn fuckerz... they alwayz take off ... UGHHH... loserz.. lol jkjk i luvz them.... im soo board.. i wish Kendra could have came DAMN.... and ya.... blah im outz... lata<333

board soo bloggering

yea soo today's Friday... and tom Saturday... and... yea we are partying once agin.. WOOOT... i cant wait tho.. cause Scott's and Jonnie's going to b there.... and scott's bring a friend SWEET lol... and yea... but im soo board now... and i aint got ne thing to do... stupid Kendra's reading... WHO DOES THAT... lol.. jkjk... OMG OMG.... we went sliding the other nite ((forgot to blog bout it DAMNIT)) and fucking me and Kendra went down this really big hill.. and at the bottom was snow bank... and we planed on jumping it... but instead we went right throw it... and the slide broke right in half lol.. thers pic there soo funny lol... but ne wayz... haha... well im outs for now cause i forgot wat i was bloggering about... lol <333

yea soo i WAS

yea soo i WAS being emo this morning but i dont get y everyone was being soo dumb about it... they all have there emo mouments too... i mean YEA i did think about NOT going to a party.. and i know that not me.. id NEVER fucking do that..... but i know... each and everyone of u have done it too... but i was GOOD friend and talked u into going.... no one talked me into going... wat the hell none of u even would fucking talkk to me... how do u think that makes me feel.. huh... well im stoping now... lata...<3

party woot.... AGAIN.....

soo yea we were partying last nite and shit... and fucking this morning muh arms hurt and i was like wtf....and i looked and there was... fucking.... 2 LIGHTER burns.. and 20 cig burns... on muh fucking arms and i was like wtf...and then i looked down when i was in the shower cause muh legz started to burn... and fucking there was atlest 10 and i was like OMFG...... damn chicken lol... well i guess that means im not a CHICKEN lol... wooot... <3

party woot.....

soo yea im at a party... and YEA we are drinking WOOOOOT... HAHAH.... aoo Anthony and Karrie and Karrie and Kendra....i dont want to blog right now.. ttul <3

haha good timez.... <33 u guyz

haha soo yea i fucking <33 muh friends there soo funny..... WOOOOT

blah blah FUCKING BLAH

ya soo im pretty blah right now.... i REALLY feel like hanging muh self... it all started last nite... i was hanging out with muh friends and shit and muh mom got home from the doctores with muh dad and she told me that we had to go to the hospital right then and there i knew wat was going on.. but i couldnt just leave Karrie at muh house by her self..... soo i ended up staying home... and i feel really bad... cause i got stoned.......:( and muh dad was in the fucking hospital soo i felt like shit but then i was just like ok.... and then today i was lissing to this song on the bus and i realized it reminded me of Brea.... soo i started crying.... and BLAH soo i been thinking about Brea ALLL DAY.... and i dont know i kinda feel like shit cause me and Kendra have been partying ALOT the last 5 mounths and we havnt went and payed respects to her or ne thing..... soo yea blah.... but im pretty sure that she understands.... that we are taking it hard even though she dont want us too..... BLAH BLAH BLAH.... ughh u know sometimez i just HATE fucking LIFE.... its soooo gay i dont see the point in it...... GAY GAY GAY..... but ne wayz...... i'm going to go up stairs now and cry some more..... lat

last weekend

soo last weekend we all went up to Jimmy's and partyed just like ever other weekend ya know... and i was thinkign.... and i THOUGH that if a guy cumed on a gurlz pussy... and he ate her out right after word.... then would it be just like snowballing ur self... and then i told mmy and Kendra... and Kendra got it but mmy didnt think soo.... sooo then i asked everyone eles that was there....and i really didnt get an answer...GAY..... but then we just kinda all went into MUH room and chilled cause Kendra and Mmy were like passsing out... and then Darren almost fucking pissed on me... cause im a dumb drunk and told him that.. he could pee on me if i could pee on hem... soo yea... he got up swonge out his dick and started peeing... welll i moved fast enough thank god... lol..... but w/e... hes an asshole... OMGOMG and then i found out that he worked with muh dad and he made me be nice to him the rest of the nite... cause he said he was going to tell muh dad that we partyed together... lol.. im dumb... well thats ll i reamaber from taht nite... NOPE WAIT... i had this really long confo with Mmy's dad and that Jeff guy about music and weather... i think they knew i was drunk... lol iight later <33

stonerz....

yea soo how about me Kendra Jeff and Rhonda.... smoked some STUFF... and then we all sat infront of muh pc fucking watching porn.... MIDGET PORN.... it was funnnn.....thats it by

soo this is more from NEW YEARS....

ok soo this afternoon after everyone got done doing "wat they were doin" out of no where Kendra screems "DUDE U GOT IT ON MUH FACE..." haha.... and then i got up and couldnt find muh cloths.. soo i just raped a blanket around.. me and went into the room with Kendra and Jimmy... and laughed at her... and then me and Kendra got in the blanket together.... and fucking walked down stairs... and went pee together... hah... cause we ARE crackers liake that... hah... ne wayz.. gota house full lata....<33

NEW YEARS!!!!!

yea soo last night was HELLLA funn lol even though we had to wait FOREVER for Jimmy to get off work... it was FUNNN... Miah,Rhonda,Scot,Jimmy,Kendra and me... was who all was there...and we all had alot of fun i tTHINK lol.... well hell i know i did lol..... me and Kendra got into one of our "thinking" moods.... and we went into the spare bedroom and talked for a while... and then we desided that Brea would want us to have a good time... and get trashed.. soo we went back into the other room with everyone eles.... and had a good time... lol... we took some funny pictures too... if i knew how i would SOOOO put them on here... but i dont know hw.... GAY... lol... i think i didnt sleep enough cause i still cant really see very straight.... lol... but ne wayz.... i <33>