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ya soo im pretty blah right now.... i REALLY feel like hanging muh self... it all started last nite... i was hanging out with muh friends and shit and muh mom got home from the doctores with muh dad and she told me that we had to go to the hospital right then and there i knew wat was going on.. but i couldnt just leave Karrie at muh house by her self..... soo i ended up staying home... and i feel really bad... cause i got stoned.......:( and muh dad was in the fucking hospital soo i felt like shit but then i was just like ok.... and then today i was lissing to this song on the bus and i realized it reminded me of Brea.... soo i started crying.... and BLAH soo i been thinking about Brea ALLL DAY.... and i dont know i kinda feel like shit cause me and Kendra have been partying ALOT the last 5 mounths and we havnt went and payed respects to her or ne thing..... soo yea blah.... but im pretty sure that she understands.... that we are taking it hard even though she dont want us too..... BLAH BLAH BLAH.... ughh u know sometimez i just HATE fucking LIFE.... its soooo gay i dont see the point in it...... GAY GAY GAY..... but ne wayz...... i'm going to go up stairs now and cry some more..... lat