Yea soo i came home for a couple dayz cause me and Ray were fighting over stupid shit ((I dont know how to communicate)) and we figured spend a couple dayz apart cause he had appointments and shit and work to do.... and I could come home and hang out..... with muh mom and dad and friend that i aint seen all summer and shit right.....


well i just found out that after his appointment this morning he took off with his Edd friend..... to New York and dont plan on comeing back till tom. .... im kinda pissed... but then kinda not....Cause that was the whole plan... take some time away from each other soo we both can go do our own thing....... but then I am pissed cause.... he said ihad to go home so he could "work" an soo i didnt have to sit around his house all day being bored and shit... soo i wouldnt get pissed off.... right..... but NOOOOO he fucking took off with his friend.... w/ee.....


And Robin was telling me last night that.... he said a buncha shit when he went down to her house... bout him waking up in the middle of the night and me not being there... not being ne wheres even in the fucking house......


kinda weird... kinda scares me... cause iknow i use to sleep walk and shit... and go outside to pet muh dog.... and he lived out in the middle of no where.... and if im walkking outside in the darkkk AHHHHHHH...... lol

But what ever ima not worrri bout it that much......



even tho i dont like Edd..... and I dont like the girls he hangs out with cause there a bbuncha whores.... UGHHH....

O well i think i trust him

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Fights SUCK.... special the day b4 i go home... cause the i fell like shit the whole time im home......


And now im worried cause muh boyfriend Dont fell good and he wont even talk to me on the phone....:( o well i hope he gets better....



nitenite <33

Soo i figured i would come home today... and NOT only cause I NEED a doctors appointment but i though I would come home and spend some time with muh soo called FAMILY..... But from What went on and What i saw and Read with-in the last 3 hours.... i aint no longer wanted around here..................... and thats sad..... fuck all yall..... I dont know if ya'll ever heard the word HAPPPY.... ((oh wait never mind.... ya'll are ALLOWED to b happy.... )) well i am starting to think that u all are agenst me being HAPPY cause the way it sounds.... nono of u like what i do.... ((and u can suck muh fucking dick.... cause I DONT CARE)) YEA thats right Kendra and Rhonda just to prove u right I SAID IT.... happy.... I DONT fucking care ne more..... im happy and thats all that matters to me.... Soo what if i give him everyy penny that i get..... Its not like I dont get some of whatever he gets outta it..... GEEEZ-US.... i will b SSOOOOOOOOOOO fucking glad when Thursday gets here and leaves.... cause the i wont have to b home again for a while to put up with ne onez shit.....





FUCK ALL YA'LLL I DONT CARE WHAT U FUCKING SAY........

Yeppp soo Rayz outta jail :D makes me smile....... And i was at his house for like that last week :D it was a LONG week... lol....NOTTT cause i was with him <33 just cause... u know lol ;) but yea..... I just wanted to blog.. cause muh body hurts... cause i got beat up by Pat... litterly.... and it all started cause i was drunk and i throw muh cellphone at him and hit him in the nutz... haha... then he tackled me... picked me up and droped muh on muh fucking head.... thats all i reamber.... lolBut yea thats all i wanted to blog... lol ... later <333 ya

Sooo i was fine and danddy and was trying not to think of that fact that Ray was in jail.... till tonite :(... when i seen... Kristan and Eric... and Jonnie and Kathie....and Kendra and Jimmy.... together and happy... then it kicked in......................

its going to KILLL me.....=(